RealitySlams: the Sea, the Napolean Wrasse,..and me.

a funny thing happened. of all people i asked for advise on the 'ways of men', i asked Patch. at the time, i didn't see the harm. in fact, i really don't see the harm. *shrugs*

I started by messaging him, 'can i ask you a guy question?' and he said, "sure. go ahead."

and so i related to him everything that went on between me and Dude, the gist of from start to finish. i don't know what the hell i hoped to achieve through this since i was supposed to have buried Dude alive.. heheh.

anyway, his first take was that Dude really loves me, but just needed time. however, i stressed, Dude said he didn't have any feelings for me and would never have any feelings for me. and then Patch's answer chaged to,..'hmm..seems like he could be filling you in an empty spot as he flirts around at the same time. just be careful and don't give more than you should.'

.hmph. figured as much.

i'm watching Dude play futsal(don't ask me why. i just said yes when he said he'd come pick me up) with some of his friends and now my friends as well,..and as there would be girls playing, i might just be inclined to join in as well. we'll see how it goes. if i feel it's 'safe' for girls to play futsal with guys. i mean heelloo,..there were accidents even while playing with girls. so,..the chances of getting into 'accidents' with guys are just more.

anyway.. that's that. we'll see how that goes on friday. which, really is tomorrow.

earlier this month, my friends and I went on a trip to Perhentian Island. beautiful, i tell ya. the trip took 10 hours on a bus. we stopped for food at 3 in the morning somewhere in Merapoh(i think), in Kelantan and reached the jetty at Besut, in K. Terengganu at around 7 in the morning. picture this...out of the 25 busses scheduled to reach the jetty, only 4 made it on time. the rest were lost. crazy, innit?.. and then out of the 4 busses, 1 whole load of bus(another group) didn't have a place to stay. see, apparently, they had paid the deposit for the bookings at a particular resort through their agent. and their agent, had overlooked to pay that resort the deposit. so..this group actually had to turn back to KL because the only other option was to stay on this other chalet that had electricity onl from 7 to 7. shitty, i tell ya. what happened to them. poor things.

anyhoo..moving on to more pleasant things like the beautiful islands and waters there,..such clear waters i've not encountered with in a looong time. and i've never enjoyed snorkelling so much as i did then. i even encountered a Napolean Wrasse that scared me shitless when we were snorkelling at turtle bay. i was so taken by surprise and after seeing its teeth,(nevermind its mouth is not big enough to swallow me whole) i free styled my way outta there with my head above the waters, my goggles still on(of coz) and the snorkle thingy still sticking out of my mouth. the guide even heard me scream. blardy hell. hahaha..turns out, it's rare to catch a glimpse of a Napolean Wrasse these days and...they are harmless. Dang it. if only i had known. but still...the thing was HUGE! maybe 2 feet long and 1 foot high. but i went back when i had like, three guys with me. there were 3 of them. huge buggers. (Note: Picture taken from the internet. i was too surprised to take anything. and anyway, i do not own a water-proof camera. bummer.)

though i burned during that trip - i am now ridden with dark skin..uhuk uhuk. gone is my chinese skin. uhuk uhuk. then again, if i had come back with the kuning langsat shade of my skin intact,..i wouldn't have been truly happy because then i couldn't have said i enjoyed myself. and anyway, what's going to a beach or an island if you don't get burnt?

so that's the story of my trip to Pulau Perhentian(trans: Perhentian Island). a memory to hold on to and cherish for as long as i may.

..what does the sea, and the Napolean Wrasse, has anything to do with me?.. well, i'm looking at the sea as a journey of endless possibilities, its destinations mysterious, its charm irresistable, and its passion fierce. yeah. that's how i'm gonna live my life from now on. with fierce passion. i may not achieve as much as i'd hope for in life,..or i might achieve more than i had thought i would, but i wouldn't know for sure unless i set my sights and plow through with full determination. who knows? along the way, i might encounter my life's Napolean Wrasse that would have taken me by surprise, scare me, and then because i bothered to look it up, i discovered that it's actually harmless. yes. life could be like that for me. i may get sunburnt as i go out to the sea,..but maybe that's just part of life's adventures that i was meant to face, to carry on my skin so that i have something to remember it by.